I am capable of much worse

What would happen to me if I went to prison? (and for hypotheticals' sake - let's say something grisly, like the unabashed hacking apart of innocent passersby with a rusted axe during rush hour on a subway platform, and let's also say that some of the victims were unfortunately flung over the side of the platform as an express train was passing through)

While I believe myself to be a reasonable person, and usually very peaceloving, I think that if I were to be sent to prison, and depending on the culture, I could be among the most cold and ruthless there. I don't think I would be getting out of prison early on good behavior at all if it took toughness to survive.

Yes, some of you will think that I'm not all that tough. But what I'm talking about is not necessarily physical toughness, it's mental toughness. I think that I would be able to completely separate my conscience from action if required. I would not hesitate to pull out your eyeballs, bite off your fingers, or stab you with a pen.

I would not hesitate to try and snap your neck from behind, or smash your skull in with the foot of a table.

I would not hesitate to rip your external genitalia off and then smash it between my hands.

I would not hesitate to call you bad names.

I would not hesitate to neglect to return your call.